I feel that I’ve reached a point in my life where I’m no longer struggling for things to make sense or for something to happen that I’m working toward. I’m at peace with where I am, and I don’t feel the pressure of trying to make anything happen.
All too often I see those quotes like “Live in the now!” and “If you’re too focused on the future one day you’ll look back and realize you missed out..”. I ignore them. Because I’ve always felt that it’s been important to look forward to the future and what that may or may not hold for me… That being said, I also realize that I need to calm down about it.
Every now and then, as I’m sure you can tell through the subject of my sporadic posts, I get world weary and desperately want to be able to fix anything of value. Then, I read a book or watch a movie that slaps me in the face with all that “Live in the now!” talk. I’ve almost always taken it for granted. This time I’m going to listen.
I have finally found the relationship that I’ve been looking for. We’re building a life together, and that is all I really need to be happy. I spend time with my family as much as possible, I have a job that I don’t absolutely loathe, and I don’t have to worry too much about money. I’m doing okay.
So for now, I’m going to relish the present. I’m going to be fully aware of every situation I’m in, instead of dwelling on what has yet to be. I want to thrive instead of worrying about what I can or can’t change. I want to love every day and not worry about what’s coming, at least not until it happens.
I’m not going to regret missing out on anything. I’m happy with everything in my life, even though some of it isn’t exactly what I want, I’m choosing to love it in the midst of change. I’m at the point where I decide how I live my life, (not based on what happens in it, but in spite of what may happen) and I have to say that I love my decision.
As always, thank you for reading into my thoughts.
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